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1st Day in Perth

2011-03-11T02:30:00.000-08:00

Finally it’s the day to fly to Perth!!! I don’t feel all that heavy to leave Miri at the moment, having my whole family to scarify their daily routine just to see me off at the Brunei airport. Furthermore summer and Micha were there too!! And guess what, Nick also see me off. **well basically because they all were all there ~~ makes me feel as if I'm not the one flying ** hoho!!

The night before, I couldn’t be sleeping very well and got up early at 5.30am to get ready to Brunei. With my 7 baggages, we head up to Brunei, we went in 2 separate cars up to meet up with Nick before heading to the airport.

Our meeting point was at the Empire hotel which is a 6 star hotel and the view is just so magnificent!!! Micha, Summer and I promised and also planned for the end of the year to stay a night at the hotel and enjoy the luxurious hospitality that the hotel has to offer!!!

Moving on, after the meeting up we went straight to the airport. With my 7 baggage, it is very obvious that it is easy for me to get over weight and the funny thing was that I thought that my dad had weighted each of the baggage the day before, after mom told me that they were weighted by my dad which in actual fact he thought I already done it. Hohohoho it’s just hilarious.

The fun keeps going when the check-in counter assistant, she gave me another allowance of 7kgs whiles my total baggage about 59.9kgs!!! And that cost us $1,200BRU my dad got shocked by the number!!

And so, we decided to empty 2 boxes out of the 7, then so happens that we met up with Marlene who is the Miss Champs~~ she won lots of title... anyway she offered to help with my weight luggage since she only will be in Perth for a few days!! Gosh it’s so embarrassing but still it’s great!!

Then, walking into the plane and got settled down. Marlene sat behind me and according to her; it is very seldom that the airbus was as big as the one we boarded!!! And they have each mini TVs to entertain all the passengers onboard, and we were also being served with lots of drinks, and a meal, completed with rice, vegetables and also rendang.... gosh it’s just so tasty... the only thing about the plane, it was about the headset that I was using, one side of the headset wasn’t working well as it can’t project out the characters voice as they were talking in the movie~~ all I can enjoy was the background music of the movie....

I have to admit, with my grey thick sweater, it’s still freaking cold and I actually needed to cover myself with a blanket! Instead of enjoying the movie along the way, I enjoy dozing off since it’s just nice, after the blanket and jacket on me, and hugging a small pillow that the aircraft provided for us.

Talking about this, all the sudden I wish to sleep as well hiak hiaks!!

Getting down from the plane, we head on to the long queue for immigration checks.... it’s a very LOOOOOOONNNGGGGGGGG queue..... But it is amazing that the Australian workers, they are very efficient and fast in doing their job! Strict yet polite hiak hiak!! To be honest, I was really nervous because they all look very furious and kind of fussy.... huhhuhuhu but I got thru with a big welcome smile hohoho!! Glad that over~~~

Moving on with my baggage collection.... omg.... after the long queue.... it’s time to queue longer to wait for the baggage uhuhuhuhu I waited about 15min to collect all my 5 baggage... luckily Marlene was there to assist me with them hiak hiak!!!

After baggage collection, omg.... this is what gets me even more anxious and I almost had an anxiety attack huhuhuhuhu I was put to the Red exit which means I need to scan my stuffs or unpacked just to let them check my itineraries.

Believe me, it’s also another... LOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNGGGGGGGG queue!!!! But there were a few things that I noticed while I was having my time queuing hiak hiak!! The inspectors use hound dog to sniff those baggage of each passengers before letting them off to the green exit hohoho so adorable!

Omg this trip in travelling alone, makes me feel like i’m a total noob in everything!! Hohohoho but its worthwhile hiak hiak.

My first time meeting Yvette who is my neighbour, Uncle Steward’s daughter, living in Perth and work as the supervisor manager at the airport!! This girl is super great!! She able to get loan to buy a house in Perth when she was only 19!! Now she is already 29 years old and owned about 3-4 houses by her own~~~ hohoho glad she was there to help me throughout the way and patient enough to wait for me along the whole way of my settling down procedure!

After had everything done, at first we got lost while we were searching for the Vickery hostel hohohoho took us quite awhile until we had someone to bring us to the admin office and that is where i met Kenneth Ung, my primary schoolmate!!

I was being allocated at Unit 29, room 8. I was told that I will be staying over the night alone and Yvette was a bit worried for my safety and hoping I would be fine ~ after getting KFC which was the only place to get food when it is about 9pm plus.... gosh ...

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=613417&id=611490541 << this is the link to my fb~~ on my 1st day~~ hohoh!!

We had KFC back in my hostel and Yvette gets time going through what I’m lacking during my stay in this hostel. Not long after that, my hostel phone rang... Shu Na found me!!! I was so much relieved about being alone and we got to hang out at their place which is off campus... they are all doing their masters!! And still left a year to graduation, which is also same, goes to me!! So much motivated!!!

Had my printer bought and they walked me home after that, and it was 11pm plus and I was all alone at the hostel and it was a little bit freaky.

I didn’t dare to shower nor get my bed properly done since this hostel, I might only going to be staying a night instead.... huhuhuhu for me to unpack will be mess if I need to move out to another unit later on.

Luckily Shuna they found me or else, electronic devices will be all dead by then hiak hiak!! I forgotten to bring my baby pillow, and i had no blanket to cover myself for the night... it was so cold... I really want to talk to my family about it and also shared it with my friends but then they are just too far and expensive to be reached... so I decided to sleep... but something actually helps me through the night!!

I didn’t notice that there were these night glowing stickers all over the ceiling at first, and it was so beautiful and I actually smiled and slept... though I was very tired but I refused to too comfortable since I’m not alone... noises everywhere, including the day.

A Trip to the Dental Center

2010-12-13T06:29:00.000-08:00

I had my tooth done and yes, I had a tooth decay~~ huhuhuhuhuhu and I walked into the clinic with my upwards smile and happy thoughts, that the dentist would give to me after everything is over!!!

Well to feel the happiness, its not just about the money you need to flow out along the way~~ your courage to face all those drills and sharp tools and not to forget,

THE SUPER DUPER SUCKER ** that sucks your saliva while your mouth is wide open~~~~~!!!!

hohohoho yeah I do look like that when the dentist really drills my tooth for fillings..... it doesn't feels or seems to be as pleasant :(

Today

2010-12-08T07:27:00.000-08:00

Today,

Well its pretty much not my day... I wanted so badly to make appointments with a dentist and a doctor, all the sudden it felt like its the hardest thing ever!!!

Waiting for a bf or a friend for hang outs not this difficult!!!

I managed to get the car for the whole afternoon and went to the dentist clinic~~ who knows~~ it was lunch time~~ ok I can just do lots of things to kill time ~~ so I go for window shopping at imperial!!!

it says 1.30pm will resume back to work~~ but in the end i waited until almost 2pm~~ the door of the clinic doesn't seems to answer... so i left to another dentist~~~ this 1 more kick!!

"To make an appointment, it would be on January because the schedule for this month has already fully booked and so as today. If you still want to make an appointment~ do feel free to call this number :)" Replied the receptionist.

As fired as I felt~~ i stompped down all the way to my car and took a deep breath and headed back home... reached home finally, Sis had rushed me home because of her take-away rice was in the car and she really needs to feed her tummy....

Sometimes when you hada bad day, no matter whatever helps or funny stuffs happened along the way ~~ you can't see the fun of it.

Luckily my friend Michelle asked me out for a walk in Parkson hohhoho accompanied by her other 2 compainions ^^ we had tons of laughs and everything just seems to be turning another way round!! hhohoho

later in the day~ I get another Michelle, who invited me for a kareaoke session for free!!! hohohoho was awesome~~ well my sis refused to join us since she has to prepare for her major exam so ~~

Gosh i sang till my voice changed.... anyways it was great overall~~ hohohoh!!

WHAT IS A DATE!!!

2010-12-07T22:40:00.000-08:00

Ok for some of you might think that I'm just being ridiculous and all those that you could think about when it comes to the term "Date" !!!

Well there are several meanings to "Date"

Professsionally

1. Time that is being stated in month, day and year.

2. State of time in the calender.

3. An engagement to go out socially with another person, often out of romantic interestAn engagement to go out socially with another person, often out of romantic interest.

4. To have origin in a particular time in the past.

5. up-to date and out of date~~~ well this 1 you cna figure out yourself hohoho!!!

Olden daysssss.....

A long long time ago~~~

well I don't know whether how long is long when romance was born into this world ^^

According to a few friends of mine whom I had discussed about this topic with, each one of them gave me interesting answers to this subject!!!

Person 1:

Last time ler~~ the male or female will ask another party who is also interested in that particular male or female ~~ a day out and they would have fun together ~~ and in the end they would do something beneath the stars and moon~~~ *** want to know wad does to stars and moon means~~ hohoho!! leave it to your imagination then HOHOHO***

Person 2: Date is 'pak to' lo~~~ two lovers together go out n do what lovers does ~~

Person 3:
Date can be just about hanging out with your friends what~~ there is no rules saying that person you asked them out must be someone you must be emotionally attached.

Person 4:
Siao eh you, well it is about having candle light dinner together ** all romantic stuffs you can find in the love novels **

Person 5:

Haiya, date can come in many forms!! you can even date your laptop like you are doing right now!!! still think that the laptop nowadays the best partner to hang out with.

Person 6: No comment... never in love before so I consider all hangouts with people whom i know and agreed to go out with, dates ***it's me ** :(

Hanoi Trip 2010

2010-12-02T23:32:00.000-08:00

HOHOHOHo hey there guys!!! Well I just got back from a company trip to Hanoi and everything was being paid for and trust me it’s like

Everyone READY???

Well I take that as a Yes then HOHOHOHO!!!

For my case... I was pretty much in the busiest schedule ever as compared to all the trips that I had ever done to any places that I ever experienced!!

Below is the diagram that able to describe how hectic was it for me, especially for these 2 months of my 2010 Year!!

Singapore (1 Week)  Sibu (1 Week)  Miri (2 days)  Sibu (2 days)  Miri (4 days) Kuala Lumpur (1 night)  Hanoi (4 days)  Kuala Lumpur (3 days) Miri (FINALLY) !!!

Despite how hectic that was~~ well it’s kind of rewarding and lots being learnt along the way. For the Singapore trip~~ it was for Lisa’s Graduation ceremony!! It was a shopping spree at the same time HOHOHOHOho and the rest about Singapore trip, I shall share with you all in the later posts ~~ because~~~ Hanoi trip was the major one of all the trips I had this year!!

And so, right after my Sibu trip, I rushed back to Miri for my semester finals~~ gosh believe me; I lost the entire mood to study and don’t be bothered revise them as well!!!

Ok OK oK~~

back to the Hanoi trip~~ Hanoi is located within Vietnam... moving on with the intro of Hanoi, this trip was being organized by Mitra Travel Agency and everything was being paid for by MAAKL ^^

Great isn’t it

Took a flight down to KL to meet up the rest of my family, they were there a day earlier and yes~~ I was alone for those few days and guess what~~~
Micha honey accompanied me singing for the night at Season Karaoke and it was awesome!!! Singing our hearts out after revision!!

As I had mentioned earlier, I had my examinations~~ and the last day of my examination which was on the 23rd November, my last paper ended at 7.30pm, and I still managed to attend a small gathering to celebrate the last paper for the semester of the year at China Hot Pot if I’m not mistaken about its name ^^ HOHOHOHo
Right after the steamboat, tummy stuffed with food~~ Summer honey, she rushed me all the way to the airport

and guess wad~~~ the flight time was at 9.45pm, and I reached at 9.30pm!!!
My heart was racing against time and it really was scary when I started to worry about missing my flight!!!

Luckily ~~ I managed to board the plane~~ and in the departure hall, there was this guy, a middle aged guy who keeps looking at me with a grinned expression on his face!!! It was super disgusting and not to mention *ham sap* (cheeky) if that is the way to put it hohohoho!!

I started praying so hard that I won’t be seated beside him in the plane!! I would cry my heart out!!!
Hhohohoho of course in the end I was seated next to another aunty ~~ hohohohohoho rejoiced!!!

After the 2.5 hours of flying~~~ finally Catherine able to fetch me from the airport to Comfort Inn !!! hohoho or else I would have to take a taxi or a bus down to the city area and it would be very dangerous since I arrived proximately around 12 midnight huhuhuhuhu scary~~~ that makes it around 2am dawn, I managed a sleep.

4.30am
Man~~ how I wish to do this to my alarm~~~

After taken care of my alarm clock~~~ Next is ~~~~~
my MomMA became our morning call person ~~ so ~~ hhohoho

**GlUpp*** Yes mommy~~ waking waking

Took a Naza Kia Taxi to KLIA. It was proximately around 5.30am that time and was thinking that I would just rest while on our way to the airport~~ but the darling driver~~ has this super cool stuff that really got me tempted!! **TV** guess what....

Phua Chu Kang the movie DVD !!!

Come on who doesn’t love TV entertainment and its Phua Chu Kang somemore!! Gosh ~~
To be frank when we reached the airport~~ we were like looking everywhere for anyone that we might probably know~ but since the flight is at 10am to Hanoi~~

NO ONE IS THERE YET!!!

And so~~ we chilled at the cafe awhile... around 8am plus~~~ sightings of people lining up at the Hanoi check in counter, SPOTTED!!!!

As quick as the wind~~ we squeezed ourselves among those people and to be frank most of the people there ~~ I’m so clueless whether they are the members of our tour trip... most of them aged around 40-50 years old!!! Some even with kids, gfs or bfs~~~ omg I was expecting to meet handsome guys ~~ HUA HUA HUA HUA I know I know I might got some influenced by the hamsap guy the other day in the airport hohohoho!!!! Can’t help to think that way~~ I believe most of us would do the same as well~~ hohoho don bottled those thoughts inside la~~ WAKAKAKA!!!

And so ~~ around 10am, we boarded the plane~~ and trust me its super awesome to be flying with MAS airlines!!! They have this TV and they entertained us with

and

Well I don’t appreciate the second movie as much though... it’s pretty silly and kind of lame for a good story line to be made.... huhuhhuhuhuhu
Still in the plane... we are being served delicious food!! Mucks!! Magnificto!!! I ordered the chicken noodle and its MUACKS!!! Oh yess its very very tasty!!!
Dessert??
HAAGEN- DAZ ice-cream!!!! WUUUHUUU!! Life can never be this great!!! WAKAKAKA!!

We even had Ferrero Rochere chocolates!!!

FINALLY the airport of Noi Bai Vietnam!!!! To be frank ~~ the airport is painted in blue~~ including its planes as well!!!

Yes this plane’s picture is being advertised by Felicia ^^ its blue ~~~

Next stop~~ EAT AGAIN!!!

This restaurant serves local foods and believe me... the fried popia~~ and the seafoods over there are the best of the best!! Freshly prepared and served!!

After eating~~ of coz~~ we need to go back to our begs~!!!

Though it is only 4 days 3 nights in Vietnam but hmmmmm yea everyone really get themselves ready for any outcomes that might happened !!!
We hopped into the tour bus and hohoho since I come from a family of 5~~~ well ~~ its nice to occupied the back seats of the bus!!!
Yea~~ I bet you understand what I meant hohohohoho!!!!

As the bus begin its journey to bring us all to Ha Long Bay~~ one of the district of Vietnam, we are captivated by the scenery along the way!!
By the way~~ this journey takes us 4 hours on road... and huhuhuhuhu my butt has already become a pancake!!!

Most of the houses in Vietnam are something like this one~~ narrow, long and tall!!! Simply because the land there are very expensive and everything its being stake up on the top of each another!!!

Another thing that got us curious was that~~~

Most of the houses are not completely being paint!!! Its like you beautify the front phase of your house and the both sides of the house just leave it as it is!!!
The tour guide explained this phenomenon to us, simple because that... to the residents all over Vietnam that painted their houses half way... thinking that one day that there shall be neighbours building up their house side by side with theirs ~~ so to them~~ there is no point of wasting the money and leave it to the future neighbour to deal with it !! hmmm come to think of it ~~ its somehow makes sense and pretty funny in a way HOHOHO!!

Our tour guide really knows how to take good care of us~~~ they even provide goodies in the bus for all of us to munch along the way~~~ and sooner than we know it~~ we noticed something more interesting!!!

Oh yesh~~!!! This one!!! For your information~~ the cow is still alive~~~ and it will be transported to a customer... a full grown cow such as this one~~ can easily cost up to 1,000 USD!!! Though Vietnam’s official currency is Dong~~ but they run their business transactions mostly on USD!!! Huhuhuhuu **sobs***

YESH!!! 2 hours on the road~~ we finally able to visit the “Happy Room” **Toilets***
This picture able to tell you how much toilets make us the happiest people on earth at that split second!!!

We stopped by one of the tourist attraction named ABS Stop... this place, they manufacture cravings of Marbles and all Vietnamese outfits can be found here....
They do it live and you will able to see how their clothes being made, hand-sewed pictures!! Hmmm as much as I wish to take a picture of them for you all... sigh cameras are not allowed!!! But i managed to steal a picture of one of the marble worker, on duty...

All these sculptures are craved and numerous of people bought them across countries!!! And the arts/ work really amazing!! Its so fine until you can’t even believe that it could be done!!!

Half an hour later~~ we hopped back into the bus!!!

Hohohohoh!! Can’t wait until we reached civilization!!!

At last!! We reached our hotel!!!! Ha Long Pearl hotel!!! Omg we were all so drained out like what after our long road journey!!!

But we are not done yet for the day!!!
Tummy still need to be taken care of~~ hohohoho!!
We were being treat to a fine hotel’s restaurant which is located 2 blocks from our hotel and its has very nice architecture!!!
The buildings are being built in English style of designs... and we ate by the pool~~

Today's mood

2009-08-30T08:13:00.000-07:00

Today all the sudden I felt like I lost something that I used to have.

Feeling deep down that, things changed, and people change.

I do not know what got into me today but it feels like, I ended lonely and somehow wished that someone would know about it.

All that I used to have and the people that comes and goes in my life. It just making me feel like I can't bare to let someone else to be as close to me because I will not know when they will leave me again and the feeling really sucks. There are friends saying that I'm just thinking too much or its me the one that wants to avoid everyone.

I do not deny the fact that I'm avoiding people and having this phobia that once someone is too close to me... or when my emotions are attached to them... I will feel the pain whenever they decided to leave.

Experienced all these over and over again, really turning me down. Way down until I don't whether I should trust someone to be near me once more. There are also friends saying that I accept someone as a friend very easy and I'm being very naif in life. In order for me to grow up, some of them even try their best to hurt me to wake me up. But it really hurts. more like very.

I thought of it for awhile. Tears are filling up my eyes. Finally, now i come to realize that I lost myself in all these issues... no wonder they say friends really gives big impact in your life. I strongly agree to it.

For me to be as care free as before. seems impossible... I tend to think more that makes me more miserable and I really hate it. Fight as I might against all those thoughts, flashes of those times on how much I was hurt back then. Tears myself apart once more.

As for now, I don't know what else to think of but to drunk myself up with work loads and .... well is there anymore that I can think about for the time being?

I think its about it for today...

Days with Manual Car

2009-08-28T22:55:00.000-07:00

Ever since my baby car is in the workshop to be repaired... Gosh how much i missed it~~ but~~ in the meanwhile~~

The fun with MANUAL CAR!!!

golly, its been a while I drive manual car... so~~ you can just imagine how eager am I to drive it !! ~~ a very cute kancil that my lovely aunt lent to us for these few days

Very cute isn't it~~ WAKAKAKA!!

Moving on to the driving experiences~~

Since its manual... there are clutch, brake and accelerator... and of course the gear box~~ the lovely one... with the most fuss among all of them....and when you able to drive smoothly~~ the car will of course move very smoothly~~

if not...

Oh yeah~~ you will never feel anymore alive if you where in a ride with me in this car~ Because you will feel as if you are in ~~

Oh yeah babe~~ at the end of our destination your hair will be like this~~

Ok he is not ready yet~~ Oh well its something like that~~ WAKAKAKAKA!!

just then ~~ there are warnings everywhere from my beloved friends a.k.a Honeys~ WAKAKAKAKAKA!!

*HEY!! BECAREFUL*
*Are you sure?*
*you must be kidding*
*Hey Girl!! You CAN O NOT!!*
*Make sure you don't mati engine at the Roundabout*
*I should buy more insurance*
*Have a nice ride*
etc....

OMg........

CeleBrities For the Night!!!!!!! wakakaka!!!

2009-08-16T07:54:00.001-07:00

OMG~~~
LAST NIGHT WAS SOMETHING~~~

it was a very nice night when we got to A1 cafe nearby pelita area~~

yeah ~~ i didnt get the picture of the night ~~ so let us imagine ya~~ WAKAKA!!

as i was saying~~ it was a wonderful night~~ and before i send my honey lena back to villa~~ we went out for supper... we laughed and joke around as we walked to the coffee shop. As we walk to the table that we wanted to be seated kan... and once we pull our respective chairs~~~ all the sudden...

omg its so embarrassing la~~~ fortunately the power went back on a few seconds later... then everyone were looking at us as if we are the celebrities of the night~~ which I think we already were since we touched those chairs... WAKAKA!!

WAKAKAKA!!!

we settled down and we continue with our girl's talks~~ and lena honey was enjoying her meal~~~ with the bahagia face~~~~
YESH~!!! just like this ~~ cute kan~~ WAKAKAKAK!!

moving on~~~ as we were happily talking and all right, there was something waiting to jump into the scene and causes a big chaos...... it was a silent attack and it was coming from below where people least expected when they are in they highest mode... it took this opportunity to attack...

OH YESH!! it is the best dark sneaker....always awaits us from the very dark corners of our areas and waiting to MAKE IT 1ST STRIKE!!! WUUUAAHHHHHHHHH!!!! **FAINT**

and that is my lena's NO.1 BIGGEST FEAR OF ALL!!!! WAKAKAKA!! she pushed her chair to the back and swing as hard as she could to take the cockroach off her body!!! **lucky its not on me** hehe!!!

well kasian her also la ~~ coz yeah... after tat~~ everyone looked at us once more~~ coz she was screaming~~....... *i donno how am i going to face everyone next time if i were to go there again * *sniffs*

She lost her appetite to eat and we continue on laughing about the matter~~ WAKAKA!!! we are good in switching modes aren't we~~WAKAKAK!!

We were happily talking and talking until one green person came along and BOOM!!! GRABBED US FROM BEHIND!!! ME N LENA SCREAMED AT THE TOP OF OUR VOICES !!!! OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!! ** omg u wouldn't want to know who was that WAKAKAKAKA**

and well folks... you can tell how famous we get ourselves into while we just want to have a simple supper.... sigh.... its a good thing that we are the center of attraction though~~ WAKAKAK!! I bet lena going to kill me for this WAKAKAK!!!

From the start we happily walking into the shop~~ and we coming out with a shocked face!!! WAKAKA!!! omg its more like

oh well we had fun anyway~~ WAKAKAKAKA!!!

WUHOoo!!!!

2009-08-12T03:36:00.000-07:00

YEAHA!!!! weekends starts already!!!

but too many assignments going on and same goes to my ass being glued on the chair just to keep up with the deadlines ler...~~

Omg~~ How i hope i look like her~~ but not the work please~~ i would be

nunununu!!! the thoughts of it ~~ just nonono my pretty face~~ cannot cannot~~ WAKAKAKA!!

Actually recently I'm pretty tired... thinking of each day there is something going to due and all... and I don't even have the time to think about any other stuffs~~ which is a good thing which helps me to get away from a lot of unnecessary issues!!

I'm so going to have my good night sleep within these few days~~ and complete my ASS!!! huh!!! golly its going to be a long weekend... WHICH IS GREAT!!!! WAKAKAKAKA!!!!

The Nightmare once more?!!! how Could this be...

2009-08-09T02:37:00.000-07:00

GOsh this is like the 11th time I had the same dream about what happened way back when I was in form 4... terrible experiences and all~~~ flashes and pieces of them flying back to me one by one...

It took me quite long to get all of them over with... but I'm just being very naive in having such thinking that everyone able to forgive and forget... I never blamed what happened back then but still the pain and memories just stuck in my mind... Feelings or thoughts of vengeance never once appeared and never did until now...

There are a lot of times that I wished that I able to talk to them once more and thank them for all those lessons that they showed to me...

everyone would say... your best friend will be yr best enemy in life... but to me this phrase... I interpret it as...

A best friend knows what is best for you and through pain and betrayals... you will begin your process of growing up *^.^* alot of people told me that im just being silly but i really meant what i say here ~~

For those friends who cares and loves you... yes they do but you need to have bad experiences to bring up the good ones in your life... that when appreciations and gratitude comes in *^.^*

In order to learn more is to fall hard... and not everyone can do that to us... and it takes a big courage for those who able to hurt another person whom they were once close with...

Ever since I started to join back clubs and all... there is always a part of me holding back in terms of trust.

Things that once easy for me seems to be so hard now... All i can do now is to remind myself about the past and make my own judgments on people's behaviors... As much as I want to live on, that is as much I want to fight my phobias on my past emotions!!! its never easy when you need to fight against yourself just to live on a better live.

Trying my best not to be someone's burden, oh well yes i still a burden for others~~ all those don't, wouldn't, can't and no's, just happen again and again and ~~ oh well yeah again!!!

In the nutshell, I'm just like any other people. But my will still very fragile to be all out there... ^^ no matter how hard is it!! I WILL MAKE IT THERE ONE THERE!!!

** refer to my wish list**

SATURDAY!!!!!!!!

2009-08-08T05:18:00.000-07:00

Today becoming a driver~~~ wuuuuuuuuu.... super tiring....

Let me tell you about how today's routes goes~~~

From my home to the middle of the town~~~

From middle of the town to Morsjaya~~ (that is If you know how far it is)

From Morsjaya to e-mart ~~ then up to e-mart again~

From e-mart to the middle of the town~~

Blurred already?? WAKAKAKA!!

Till have no idea how far~~~ JUST KEEP READING AS YOU ARE NOW!!! WAKAKAKA!!! Anyways~~~

From the middle of the town to e-mart again~~

From e-mart to AIRPORT!!!!

From airport to morsjaya~~~

From Morsjaya to PARKSON!!! **Merry Brown**

From Parkson~~ to~~ FINALLY HOMEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

Oh yeah~~ A Saturday~~~~ omg~~ you would want to know what we got from all of these trips!! WAKAKAKAKA!!!

MY WISH LIST!!!!

2009-08-07T07:31:00.000-07:00

GRADUATE!!!!!!!!!!!! i haven get the chance to have any picture any graduate pictures huhuhuhhuhuhuhuhuhu well yeahhh wakakakaaka!!!

look like me ma?~~~ wakaka! if can't~~ well JUST DO IT TILL YOU CAN SEE MY FACE IN THESE PICTURES!!! WAKAKAKAKA!!!!

MY TRIP BACK TO MACAU!!!!! It's one of my wish to be there again and I really love the atmosphere over there~~~ gentle breeze and the air is so refreshing!!! yeah i know it is well known for their gambling world~~~ but still the scenery are really something that I would hope to experience once more...~~~ **** my love****

NEXT!!! HaWAiiii~~~~!!!

OMg~~ ah lu la lummm ah hu la huuuu~~~going on vacation with my fnf~~

NEXT JApan!! Cheery BlooSmmm

SING WITH THE STARS!!!! OH YESHH!!! WOOO HUUU!!!!

still got what ah...~~~ WAIT!!!

next post ba~~ WAKAKAKA!!

I'm Bakie~~

2009-08-07T06:33:00.001-07:00

Wow its long since i last log into my own blogspot~~ i even forgotten my blog url !! wakkakakak!!!

oh well this is the new sem~~ but i felt like its going to be a tough one since its a lot for me to catch up and concentrate on....

All these times i felt blessed in many ways!! i got the people who always there fighting for me and pampers me whenever i needed them~~ thanks ya~~

But there is always something stuck in my mind... no matter how straight forward am i in my thinking as well as my daily routines in life.... i begun to learn that, there are always something that you wish to keep to yourself and a part of you thinking that its over while you know it hasn't because the issue is living within you...

I felt much and cried much over and over each time, but just like this Chinese saying that "you suffered but no one will know" even with the big smile and all those laughter that I've painted on my face... hoping that everyone wouldn't see through them....

I begun practice another mindset of thinking in stead of focusing on what I don't want, to something that I want instead!!

Feeling about all the happiness and excitement that I will be experiencing when i have my wish list granted!!

Though its not easy but hey~~ Its me, I don't mind anymore about the past or what happening to me now... what i care the most is the me that i want to be and wished to accomplish!!!

I don't have a very smooth sailing through my love life... falling for the one that I couldn't be together with, but those I can't do much as i told myself that I love myself much and making sure that I'm ok and avoid hurting myself further with all those mental tortures that I had been experiencing *^.^* it was a great lesson learnt and I'm not regretting anything from all these as I know there are other things in life that I could focus on to have !!

In terms of friendships... I don't how to keep my friends happy when they are at their lowest... and sometimes i hate it when i can't do much but to make things even worse for them as it already is.... i always feel insecure and felt that im not worthy to be with the ones i'm with actually... as if there is a contrast of standards whenever im standing beside them.... well maybe is that myself esteem is not that high after all like what it appears to be *^.^*

Day by day I tell myself that its going to be a better day one day and im looking forward to it!! as miracles do happen and that's what im believing in!!!

***TiUt TiuT***

Lesson in Life~~~

2009-04-09T03:47:00.000-07:00

Lesson 3:
A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp.

They rub it and a Genie comes out.
The Genie says, 'I'll give each of you just one wish.'
'Me first! Me first!' says the admin clerk.. 'I want to be in the Bahamas, driving a speedboat, without a care in the world.'
Puff! She's gone.

'Me next! Me next!' says the sales rep. 'I want to be in Hawaii , relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life.'

Puff! He's gone.

'OK, you're up,' the Genie says to the manager.
The manager says, 'I want those two back in the office after lunch.'

Moral of the story:
Always let your boss have the first say.

Lesson 6
A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field.

While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him.

As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was.

The dung was actually thawing him out!

He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.
A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate.

Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story:

(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.

(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your
friend.

(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep
your mouth shut!

*cited from an Email FW: Lessons In Life‏*

Me love this~~ WAAKAKAKAKAKAK

2009-04-09T03:46:00.000-07:00

Lesson 6
A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field.

While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him.

As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was.

The dung was actually thawing him out!

He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.
A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate.

Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story:
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.

(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your
friend.

(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep
your mouth shut!

PHEWW!!! FINALLY!!!

2009-04-07T03:05:00.000-07:00

Curtin Open day had just over~~ gosh.... super tired after 5 days intensive training for the dance battle ~~

I had my time on the stage and it was like ~~ WOW!!! 1st time in my life I had so much fun on stage without thinking it was a competition!!!

Anyways those times that we made our bodies sore gosh.~~~ I feel like a new person ~~ WAKAKAKA!! i know i cant really sweat like the others which makes me feel that maybe my skin pores are not big enough nei~~

But~~ overall ~~ the big rain towards the end of the Open day~~ It was the 1st time after for so many years after I left secondary school, to play under the rain...

Well not that its an emo thingy~~ I do missed all those times where I used to be very care free and also enjoying every bits of my life compared to the time i have now.

Due to the fact that I missed those times too much that I still want to remain who I am which is to play around, thinking that what I do now will not effect me much. But then I realized that time changes and same goes to the surrounding environment. I can't help to think that I'm getting childish as time goes by and all I want is do what I want without realizing that I actually getting the people around me into tons of troubles due to my actions.

After the rain stopped, and day passed since that day, there are more to a lesson that I had learn from a friend... I met all sorts of people every now and then but limits are all I can do for now... Being selfish and all these are what the people are trying to teach me in order for me to achieve my goals in life... but still I have my own principles to life which I will never break till now.

A promise will always be a promise though they are always meant to be broken from time to time... to me, a promise can be broken through time but through time in the future a promise can be done also~~

A promise to a friend and also a promise to myself that I will keep until then!!!

^^^^ Loving Each DAy Dearly^^^^^^

Lost??

2009-03-28T10:09:00.001-07:00

Gosh today was like wow~~~ had an injection on my butt~~ sigh... but hope im recovering from this sickness which is like draining me down the road~~ HUHUHUHUHU

aNyways~~ I still managed to sing with my "katak" voice THROUGHout THE Night!!! guess what today there was this campaign "60 earth time"? i do not know whether I got it wring or not but basically all about the global warming issues and this is a move to pro-long the earth's life span~~ which everyone believes that it will going to die soon... So yeah~~ to support this campaign everyone basically need to cooperate to off their electricity globally~~

thoughts grows wild in my mind!! such as, "GOSH WHAT HAPPENED TO THE WORLD AFTER THAT!!", "the Crime rates sure like super kick ass high up!!", "WHAT ABOUT THE SICK PEOPLE IN THE HOSPITALS?", and all other weird stuffs that I could think off for the moment because I thought that everyone in the world must do it or the government will need to shut down the generators of the countries at least for 60 min!! Imagine when the world in complete darkness!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG !!! I can't think anymore further... huhuhuhuhuhuhu really darn sad of me actually~~ WAKAKAKA!!

Anyways... Today we did celebrate this campaign at taman awam and all those silly things we can think off wow~~ I was like yeah releasing my stress and from the recent problems that really going to take my current life apart...its been awhile since I kind of stay away from my friends... and knowing the facts that they will be leaving to Perth very soon... I really had my heart broken... not only that, there are some graduating next year too... the thoughts of we all stand as one or go "yam cha" and talk about everything under the sun~~ WOW!! But I will always be here and try my very best to Keep in touch!! *sniffs sniffs*

Though I been through a lot of betrayals and all... but still I still believe that this world I still can meet true friends... I will try as hard as I can to keep them and to see them in the future... as I really want them to be part of my future as they are now in my current life!!

Loves, Phy Phy

The "But"s

2009-03-27T21:54:00.000-07:00

Things changes from time to time...

There are still something that I can't really cope up with. Run as I can, avoid as I might, I still can't stop the time from telling me all the truth about someone who is so dear and also as close as anything in this world that anyone can think of.

It might be something that needs some changes but still, How can someone so dear to me would ever want to mix and stir up the lives of their love ones... I really wondering whether it ever hurt them before when they do all those wicked things to hurt others...

I almost lost everything but I can only tell that I need to move on and focus on whatever it is in front of me... sometimes i felt like I'm always alone in facing all those issues going on... Losing myself bit by bit really killing me in a way.

I know what I should do or I shouldn't... It may be hard for me to repaint the picture which was once so perfect for me and to face all those cobwebs and spiders that are destroying this picture in my heart.

With love that I can show, it seems like never enough... you just see all right through me, I seems to be so invisible for this person... All I can think about on how to make things goes into a better way but you just going to make things so difficult as it is already...

For now... I will live for my own and for the precious stones in my life... what was there.. now will be removed...

New World New Post

2009-03-24T06:03:00.000-07:00

Hey all~~ this will be my 1st post for everything that will be rolling in this blog~~~

Since its the first~~ I hereby welcome you into my cubby world~~ WAKAKAKAKAKA

It may seems simple and all but still there are more to this girl, you need to know more about!!!

Cubby this name had been created since the year 2005!! I do not know exactly when or why or how it sSSSSSriiiIIkKKEE my mind though~~ WAKAKAKAKAK!!! anyways the bottom line is that....

I can be very emotional at times and I got my 3 gems with me~~ 3 of them are the dearest to me, I thank the above ones to send them into my life~~ WAKAKAKAKA!!

Intro to you~~ My Moonlight*nia*, My TuTu *wewe* and my Honey *leNa* wakakakaka!!

fOR YOUR INFORMATION!!! yes I call all my friends as my honey~~~ but still everyone of them are super unique in their ways!!!

Not forgotten My Monthly friends~~~ Jan, May and Jun!!!! gosh they are just the blast to everything ~~ WAKAKAKAK!!! ** MicHa cant forget you nei~~~wakakakak!!

Yet~~ there are a few guys that we all must know~~~ DD*brO*, Abang Ebi, waiwai, Kel, Rayz, Bon bon, BinCient,Zatt, and Papa~~ WAKAKAKAKAKA!!

Anyways If i missed out any of you ~~ No worries there are more to come where you will be in too!!! you know who you are~ WAKAKAKAKA!!

My darling Mimi!!! yeaaahhh always not failing to be there for me.... me love ya~~WAKAKAKAKA!!

So far this voice will be talking about this at the moment~~